Weight/Diet update

Ironically when I'm at college/uni I eat way healthier than I do at home (I live with my uncle, his wife and 4 kids). Maybe it's because I'm too frugal to spend my money on mindless snacking sprees at college. At home, snacks overflow the pantry and it's incredibly tempting when everything is just so damn delicious and I have nothing else to do.

So.... back to updating you guys on my weight. At college, during the last few weeks (about 4), I was able lose the pounds and drop from 140 to 133lb. This is without regular exercise (hardly any) and just by eating less and resisting the scrumptious ice cream and dessert area of the cafeteria.
Believe me when I say that it took an incredibly long time (almost a whole semester to be exact) for me not to feel obliged to eat everything in sight just because it's part of what I paid for.

Currently, I weigh 138 pounds..... I feel ashamed, in the space of one week and 4 days, I've put on 5 pounds and it sucks. I've really let myself down in terms of what I eat. I'm working on it. Thank God they actually buy fruit now so when I feel the urge to snack I'll reach for a bag of grapes rather than a pack of oreos.

Nevertheless, I'm proud to say that I've been working out every other day. I run for about 30/40mins, do squat and ab exercises and it feels great. I've really been pushing myself in that aspect, but I really need to pull up my socks with my diet if I want to see any major results.

My goal for this summer is to lose 15pounds. I don't think its too far fetched, I'll have until August to reach my target weight so I'll look like a brand new person when school starts again. I'd be really content to lose even just 10 pounds for the long term. I basically don't want to weigh more than 128pounds again.
My thighs seriously kill my self-esteem.

Work it with Youtube!

Hey Guys,

it's been a while. Again, I know, I'm sorry.

But but but, I have good news! :)

Firstly,
my diet has really improved. Well that is, my eating habits. These days I don't overeat anymore. I'm beginning to learn how to control my erratic appetite and hunger. I'm getting there, bear with me.

Secondly,
I officially have weight loss buddy. And it's a guy mind you, but we're totally helping each other and it's been really good so far because we motivate each other when we feel like eating everything we see and scold each other when we haven't worked out for the day. By August 1st, I should lose 10 pounds. So basically goal weight is 125pounds *Fingers crossed*

Thirdly,
I LOOOOVE this Youtube fitness channel called Blogilates! The instructors name is Cassie and she's just amazing! Believe you me, I really hate working out, I never have the motivation for it. But, she's the only one that can make me endure a whole workout and keep up with her monthly workout plans just because she's so motivational! I mean, just look at her! She's got an amazing body to aspire for and a great personality to keep you coming back to her workouts everyday.
For those of you out there looking for at-home workouts, I really suggest you give her a try!
http://www.youtube.com/blogilates

P.S.: She also has a diet/food channel called Blogilates TV
http://www.youtube.com/user/BlogilatesTV

P.P.S: Visit her blog, I'm currently on day 8 of the April 2013 calendar
http://www.blogilates.com/

Time for a change!

So it's been a while since I've posted anything.... Probably about a year and a half.

And although I have gained weight actually, I definitely am not going down the unhealthy route of weightloss again. This time, I'm determined to move my lazy ass! (which I have been doing regularly by the way which has helped maintain my current weight).

The thing is, now I need to change the way I eat. I admit, I still have a problem with food which is rather unhealthy. I still binge uncontrollably when I'm feeling emotionally low. But I will get there, I promise.

Firstly;

I need to cut down on Sugar.
Sugar is my biggest enemy yet.

I have no problem avoiding meat and salty things but I do have a really sweet tooth most of the time.
And let me tell you it has cost me.... I'm about 7-10pounds heavier than last time I posted something on my blog.

I take the blame.

Secondly;

I need to cut down my frickin' portions. I can truly testify to the myth that people who don't eat breakfast are heavier. I've seen it with my own eyes. I used to eat breakfast during secondary school but once I got to my final 2 years, since then I've been a pretty good breakfast-skipper.

This means that I don't eat for ages and most of the time (I'm in the final year of Sixth Form by the way), I'm so busy I forget to eat which means that I probably don't eat until 4 or 5pm depending on my schedule.

So when I do eventually get my hands on some food, I wolf tons and tons of it down as if I had been starving for the past week. Obviously, this means that I overeat A LOT.
So not eating breakfast and lunch would be absolutely worthless at the end of the day because I eat twice or sometimes thrice as much as I would normally eat throughout the day in a single sitting. *Sigh*

That is bad. That is very VERY BAD.

This, I realise, is another habit I need to kick to the curb.

Lastly;

I have to destroy the 'I'm not good/pretty/slim-enough' monster within me. Once I find out how, I promise to share with you how I managed to tear the monster into pieces.

I'll leave now and do some coursework as I planned for today. Half the day is already gone! Oh dear, I'm so idle.... X_X

More reasons...

Sorry, last post for today!

It was going soo good...

So as you can tell by the post title; I have failed. Again. But guess what guys I'm not beating myself up about it because it's the holidays now and I'm totally taking the opportunity over the next few days to fast and do some vigorous exercise as my parents are still working this week. So I should be able to fast until Thursday morning :) I'm actually excited about not eating, the feeling of emptiness and turning a cold shoulder on hunger; It gets me on a high that is impossible to explain unless you are able to read my mind and feel what I feel.

Anyway, enough of that! Starting from now I am NOT eating. I shall drink plenty of water and take vitamin supplements as well as fibre tablets that have laxative effects (yay, finally found them in the medicine cupboard). I shall wake up at 8AM and go rolllerblading (rollerskating) in the morning for an hour (although it's gonna be FREEZING COLD) and again in the afternoon at 2 or 3PM depending on if it seems its gonna start getting dark outside soon. So yea that's my plan, and if I feel excrucitating hunger pangs I shall ONLY have 1 packet of Tomato and Basil soup in a cup which is only 55calories!!! I must remember, I must remember...... When I feel like going to the kitchen I must remind myself that it is not worth it and that it's best to just stay in my bedroom and do a mountain-high pile of homework, coursework and revision for my freaking exams in January.

Ok, so those who have read my previous posts probably know that I absolutely LOVE trampolining and I have owned and used Rollerblades since the age of 9. So yeah, I want to know two sports that you guys absolutely LOVE!

Some thinspo for you lovlies out there that actually read my blog :) 

I love Taylor Momsen! :)

Guys, guys, guys!! I'm sooo glad to have found rollerbading thinspo :)

Have a lovely day and week guys :)

Another fail...

So I'm a bit annoyed/depressed because I just realised how nice I am. Like really, sometimes people just take advantage of me. I always pay attention to what people say and when I point out that like for my exam today they didn't ask me how it went and they're like 'Oh yeah'. And then I just feel like.. poo, basically. So I'm always welcomed to ask them about how things are going and listen to their stories (most of them which are crap) all day long but they can't ask me how an exam went??? Ok, that's cool. Keep calm I tell myself. It's not worth it to kick up a fuss and argue. I'm not good at fights, all I'm able to do is listen to the person bullshiting and ignoring them. That's just who I am.

Ok so today I had my Biology exam and it was alright and of course the things that I revised for the most didn't come up on the paper. That's cool, cos I mean I didn't waste my time or anything.... (Note the sarcasm as I write) 

Anyway, knowing that I have the exam today, yesterday I vowed to eat breakfast for today which by the way is not becoming such a hard thing to do anymore :( Yes people say skipping breakfast is bad but for me its a little different... 

If I don't eat breakfast I will not eat dinner because I eat lunch which means I only eat once a day. If I eat breakfast then somehow my messed up hunger signals drive me into eating dinner too, that means I eat TWICE a day. So yea, I ate breakfast and lunch today. and LOADS of snacks 

I didn't mean to, it's just that my friend (who if I may mention is SKINNY and I LOVE HER SHAPE its DEPRESSING) forced me and bought me chicken nuggets and fat chips to eat at the canteen when I told her I have an exam. Silly me, I shouldn't have. Now I know to avoid telling her I have exams or tests or whatever because she believes it magically makes your brain work better o.O So that sucked but I didn't give into eating dinner though (YAY), because my mum didn't really bother me too much since she was busy with her own thing.  

So my goals for tomorrow are to skip breakfast and simply just eat lunch and resist dinner which is about the easiest thing to do. Resisting dinner that is, I simply look at the amount of food my parents eat and that already puts me off and I'm on my way!

I weighed myself after breakfast today, fully dressed because I forgot to weigh myself after taking a shower. 

I don't want to weigh myself today because I know I gained about a pound or two. Gonna do some leg and abdominal exercises before bed to feel better.

Hopefully I will burn more calories through my 2 hour trampolining session tomorrow. I missed today's 1 hour session because it's during lunchtime and yea....

So some encouragement for you guys and myself also

So true...... :(

Ha ha! :D

AMEN!!

This is what I need to work on sooo badly

Ha ha ! :D

And on that marvellous note, bye and take care guys! xx

A finger-touch away from 1st GW!!!

So this is a quick one before I go off to college, guys I've almost reached my first goal weight (126 pounds). I'm 127.9 pounds!! Wohoooo, appetite loss all the way! See, I knew being sick was gonna help lots. When I started being sick I was 132pounds soo woohooo! I'm so excited! I had to eat breakfast (boiled egg, slice of hovis seedy toast with a slice of cheese) this morning because of my mum but won't eat for the rest of the day, fingers crossed :)

Sick....

Hey guys (if anyone is reading this),, I'm sick! Woohooo, yes I know you must be thinking I'm crazy but I've been wanting to get a cold since a few days now and I finally am sick. Wooohooo Mission accomplished! You must be wondering why on earth I would like to be sick.... Well, basically when I get sick I have no appetite whatsoever so I lose like a lot of weight because I end up eating next to nothing for a couple of days :)

So yes,, wish me luck guys! I want to lose at least 3 or 4 pounds through this :)

Some back and shoulders thinspo for today....

So I'm off to bed now.... Bye guys and stay strong xx