Weight/Diet update

Ironically when I'm at college/uni I eat way healthier than I do at home (I live with my uncle, his wife and 4 kids). Maybe it's because I'm too frugal to spend my money on mindless snacking sprees at college. At home, snacks overflow the pantry and it's incredibly tempting when everything is just so damn delicious and I have nothing else to do.

So.... back to updating you guys on my weight. At college, during the last few weeks (about 4), I was able lose the pounds and drop from 140 to 133lb. This is without regular exercise (hardly any) and just by eating less and resisting the scrumptious ice cream and dessert area of the cafeteria.
Believe me when I say that it took an incredibly long time (almost a whole semester to be exact) for me not to feel obliged to eat everything in sight just because it's part of what I paid for.

Currently, I weigh 138 pounds..... I feel ashamed, in the space of one week and 4 days, I've put on 5 pounds and it sucks. I've really let myself down in terms of what I eat. I'm working on it. Thank God they actually buy fruit now so when I feel the urge to snack I'll reach for a bag of grapes rather than a pack of oreos.

Nevertheless, I'm proud to say that I've been working out every other day. I run for about 30/40mins, do squat and ab exercises and it feels great. I've really been pushing myself in that aspect, but I really need to pull up my socks with my diet if I want to see any major results.

My goal for this summer is to lose 15pounds. I don't think its too far fetched, I'll have until August to reach my target weight so I'll look like a brand new person when school starts again. I'd be really content to lose even just 10 pounds for the long term. I basically don't want to weigh more than 128pounds again.
My thighs seriously kill my self-esteem.

More reasons...

Sorry, last post for today!

Another fail...

So I'm a bit annoyed/depressed because I just realised how nice I am. Like really, sometimes people just take advantage of me. I always pay attention to what people say and when I point out that like for my exam today they didn't ask me how it went and they're like 'Oh yeah'. And then I just feel like.. poo, basically. So I'm always welcomed to ask them about how things are going and listen to their stories (most of them which are crap) all day long but they can't ask me how an exam went??? Ok, that's cool. Keep calm I tell myself. It's not worth it to kick up a fuss and argue. I'm not good at fights, all I'm able to do is listen to the person bullshiting and ignoring them. That's just who I am.

Ok so today I had my Biology exam and it was alright and of course the things that I revised for the most didn't come up on the paper. That's cool, cos I mean I didn't waste my time or anything.... (Note the sarcasm as I write) 

Anyway, knowing that I have the exam today, yesterday I vowed to eat breakfast for today which by the way is not becoming such a hard thing to do anymore :( Yes people say skipping breakfast is bad but for me its a little different... 

If I don't eat breakfast I will not eat dinner because I eat lunch which means I only eat once a day. If I eat breakfast then somehow my messed up hunger signals drive me into eating dinner too, that means I eat TWICE a day. So yea, I ate breakfast and lunch today. and LOADS of snacks 

I didn't mean to, it's just that my friend (who if I may mention is SKINNY and I LOVE HER SHAPE its DEPRESSING) forced me and bought me chicken nuggets and fat chips to eat at the canteen when I told her I have an exam. Silly me, I shouldn't have. Now I know to avoid telling her I have exams or tests or whatever because she believes it magically makes your brain work better o.O So that sucked but I didn't give into eating dinner though (YAY), because my mum didn't really bother me too much since she was busy with her own thing.  

So my goals for tomorrow are to skip breakfast and simply just eat lunch and resist dinner which is about the easiest thing to do. Resisting dinner that is, I simply look at the amount of food my parents eat and that already puts me off and I'm on my way!

I weighed myself after breakfast today, fully dressed because I forgot to weigh myself after taking a shower. 

I don't want to weigh myself today because I know I gained about a pound or two. Gonna do some leg and abdominal exercises before bed to feel better.

Hopefully I will burn more calories through my 2 hour trampolining session tomorrow. I missed today's 1 hour session because it's during lunchtime and yea....

So some encouragement for you guys and myself also

So true...... :(

Ha ha! :D

AMEN!!

This is what I need to work on sooo badly

Ha ha ! :D

And on that marvellous note, bye and take care guys! xx

So....

So... I'm still sick, which I really didn't think would last up till now. So I've fully regained my appetite, mostly because my mum has been making me eat and I don't really have flu-ey symptoms anymore.... It's my throat now; it kills.

 Anyway I'm still gonna go trampolining tomorrow after school because there's no way I'm missing anymore. I missed my 2 hour session for the past two thursdays and I feel like I'm slacking. Hasn't really been my fault though as for the first time I missed it, my mum and I went shopping for her birthday and the second time I was ill, so yea.... I bet my teacher is going to be mad pissed now -_-

Listening to Coldplay at the moment..... Random I know ha ha :)

I love their song called Paradise, gave me goosebumps when I first listened to it :)

Anyways I'm gonna fast tomorrow because I absolutely had no control over what I ate this weekend, my mum. That's all I need to say.

Some couple thinspo :)

Well that's it for now :)

Hmmm... Progress?

So basically during summer time, around July... I was 126 pounds. Then I bounced all the way up to 135pounds and I am currently at 132pounds AND COUNTING! The scale is going down :) Wohooo! Although I'm sorta disappointed with myself for eating loads of Pringles today and a slice of toast with nutella. Oh well I managed to eat nothing else beside that accept some Mango and Pineapple. But I don't really consider them as food, they're simply nutritious stuff you need everyday :)

So yhhh I'm sick and I've missed a 2hour trampolining session today because of it -_- Ahhh well I will be back to bouncing on Monday hopefully :)

So at the moment I'm sorta pissed but not really. Basically my boyfriend and I havent talked in a week, might be even a week and a few days :( And I dont mean not talking as in texting I mean as in voice, face-to-face Skype talking (Yes I'm in a long-distance relationship, he's in New York, started University there this year)

Well the thing is I really want to BE with him but then I cant be bothered to TALK to him and I think he's slowly starting to give up to chase after me. And well that, thats just saddening.... :( Oh, freaking time difference! Why do you do this to me? Yea that's a problem too... When I am about to go to bed at around 12am my time its just about evening, his time -__- Megaaa annoying! Arrghhhh

So yeah, I have a psychology mock exam tomorrow, hope I don't fail cos as I'm sick at the moment, nothing's staying in my head -_- God help me.

Some neck and collar bones thinspo for today :)

So beautiful :')

Ok that's it for today, Stay strong guys! :) xoxo