Weight/Diet update

Ironically when I'm at college/uni I eat way healthier than I do at home (I live with my uncle, his wife and 4 kids). Maybe it's because I'm too frugal to spend my money on mindless snacking sprees at college. At home, snacks overflow the pantry and it's incredibly tempting when everything is just so damn delicious and I have nothing else to do.

So.... back to updating you guys on my weight. At college, during the last few weeks (about 4), I was able lose the pounds and drop from 140 to 133lb. This is without regular exercise (hardly any) and just by eating less and resisting the scrumptious ice cream and dessert area of the cafeteria.
Believe me when I say that it took an incredibly long time (almost a whole semester to be exact) for me not to feel obliged to eat everything in sight just because it's part of what I paid for.

Currently, I weigh 138 pounds..... I feel ashamed, in the space of one week and 4 days, I've put on 5 pounds and it sucks. I've really let myself down in terms of what I eat. I'm working on it. Thank God they actually buy fruit now so when I feel the urge to snack I'll reach for a bag of grapes rather than a pack of oreos.

Nevertheless, I'm proud to say that I've been working out every other day. I run for about 30/40mins, do squat and ab exercises and it feels great. I've really been pushing myself in that aspect, but I really need to pull up my socks with my diet if I want to see any major results.

My goal for this summer is to lose 15pounds. I don't think its too far fetched, I'll have until August to reach my target weight so I'll look like a brand new person when school starts again. I'd be really content to lose even just 10 pounds for the long term. I basically don't want to weigh more than 128pounds again.
My thighs seriously kill my self-esteem.

Time for a change!

So it's been a while since I've posted anything.... Probably about a year and a half.

And although I have gained weight actually, I definitely am not going down the unhealthy route of weightloss again. This time, I'm determined to move my lazy ass! (which I have been doing regularly by the way which has helped maintain my current weight).

The thing is, now I need to change the way I eat. I admit, I still have a problem with food which is rather unhealthy. I still binge uncontrollably when I'm feeling emotionally low. But I will get there, I promise.

Firstly;

I need to cut down on Sugar.
Sugar is my biggest enemy yet.

I have no problem avoiding meat and salty things but I do have a really sweet tooth most of the time.
And let me tell you it has cost me.... I'm about 7-10pounds heavier than last time I posted something on my blog.

I take the blame.

Secondly;

I need to cut down my frickin' portions. I can truly testify to the myth that people who don't eat breakfast are heavier. I've seen it with my own eyes. I used to eat breakfast during secondary school but once I got to my final 2 years, since then I've been a pretty good breakfast-skipper.

This means that I don't eat for ages and most of the time (I'm in the final year of Sixth Form by the way), I'm so busy I forget to eat which means that I probably don't eat until 4 or 5pm depending on my schedule.

So when I do eventually get my hands on some food, I wolf tons and tons of it down as if I had been starving for the past week. Obviously, this means that I overeat A LOT.
So not eating breakfast and lunch would be absolutely worthless at the end of the day because I eat twice or sometimes thrice as much as I would normally eat throughout the day in a single sitting. *Sigh*

That is bad. That is very VERY BAD.

This, I realise, is another habit I need to kick to the curb.

Lastly;

I have to destroy the 'I'm not good/pretty/slim-enough' monster within me. Once I find out how, I promise to share with you how I managed to tear the monster into pieces.

I'll leave now and do some coursework as I planned for today. Half the day is already gone! Oh dear, I'm so idle.... X_X