Weight/Diet update

Ironically when I'm at college/uni I eat way healthier than I do at home (I live with my uncle, his wife and 4 kids). Maybe it's because I'm too frugal to spend my money on mindless snacking sprees at college. At home, snacks overflow the pantry and it's incredibly tempting when everything is just so damn delicious and I have nothing else to do.

So.... back to updating you guys on my weight. At college, during the last few weeks (about 4), I was able lose the pounds and drop from 140 to 133lb. This is without regular exercise (hardly any) and just by eating less and resisting the scrumptious ice cream and dessert area of the cafeteria.
Believe me when I say that it took an incredibly long time (almost a whole semester to be exact) for me not to feel obliged to eat everything in sight just because it's part of what I paid for.

Currently, I weigh 138 pounds..... I feel ashamed, in the space of one week and 4 days, I've put on 5 pounds and it sucks. I've really let myself down in terms of what I eat. I'm working on it. Thank God they actually buy fruit now so when I feel the urge to snack I'll reach for a bag of grapes rather than a pack of oreos.

Nevertheless, I'm proud to say that I've been working out every other day. I run for about 30/40mins, do squat and ab exercises and it feels great. I've really been pushing myself in that aspect, but I really need to pull up my socks with my diet if I want to see any major results.

My goal for this summer is to lose 15pounds. I don't think its too far fetched, I'll have until August to reach my target weight so I'll look like a brand new person when school starts again. I'd be really content to lose even just 10 pounds for the long term. I basically don't want to weigh more than 128pounds again.
My thighs seriously kill my self-esteem.

Actively making progress....

Hey guys! So, for the past few days I've been very good at controlling myself :) I've only eaten once yesterday and today and before that I've been very cautious and haven't binged. I think I'm starting to realise that change all happens once you start thinking differently. I mean, now I actually listen to my brain when it says that I'm nearly full. It's quite weird and you might not understand but bear with me. It's almost as if I mentally process everything on my plate and food in my surroundings before it even goes into my mouth. It's good in a sense that I know that I will only eat what's on my plate and I won't burden myself with more food from the surroundings. I sort of just think that I'm physically incapable of downing anymore food than what's on my plate. For example, like today at Breakfast with the family, after finishing my plate of food (2 baguette slices + toppings), I stared at the croissant for a bit. My mum looked at me and said "Eat it", and I just looked at it some more and concluded that "no" I couldn't physically put in my mouth. For the first time in ages, I've been almost full, realised it and actually stopped eating!!! That's quite an achievement for me because although I know I'm full, I carry on eating- It was baaaad. 

I've challenged myself to get to 125 by February 8th. Haven't weighed myself, only going to on Wednesday's because the 8th will be a Wednesday. Wish me luck guys :)
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More reasons...

Sorry, last post for today!

So sorry! Oh and happy New Year :)

I haven't posted in weeks and I'm sorry guys. Been mega busy! Exams start next week Tuesday, hope everything goes well :) Got coursework due on Friday which I MUST start now.... after this post. Hope you guys had a good holiday and this year I didn't make any resolutions (surprisingly). I'm gonna stick with being realistic.

POSITIVES

Thank God I didn't gain 1 pound during the festive period!!! It's quite surprising because I ate a lot of CRAP including tons of sweets, crips, chocolate ect. Everything bad basically. And there are STILL some leftovers at home. Anyway, I started doing daily workouts again and hopefully I will last longer than 3 weeks this time. Maybe I should have breaks at times so I don't get bored? 

I'm regularly going to the gym, only once a week though but it's still something! I go on Tuesdays during lunchtime at my college (6th form) because it's a Girls-Only session., I could go to the Thursday one too but I already go for the Christian Union thing during lunchtimes so thats not possible.

NEGATIVES

Im stuffing my face like CRAZYYY!!!! Too many holiday leftovers at home :(

PLAN

stop eating after 6PM!!!

to stop craves I WILL drink a long cup of water, IMMEDIATELY, if I can't hold it, eat an apple and reward myself with a tiny snack like a chocolate covered rice cracker (only 40 calories!) if I still feel hungry. 

There's no point treating myself badly by trying to fast when there's so much CRAP around the house

Keep drinking herbal teas! It's really helping me poo (excuse my language) normally and not be bloated all the time :)

Time for thinspo!!!!

She's so beautiful :)

Dream legs up there ^^^ :O

Holy shizzle!!! I wanna be able to wear thights like that and  NOT have fat spilling over!! :D

Ok, that's it for now lovelies :)

It was going soo good...

So as you can tell by the post title; I have failed. Again. But guess what guys I'm not beating myself up about it because it's the holidays now and I'm totally taking the opportunity over the next few days to fast and do some vigorous exercise as my parents are still working this week. So I should be able to fast until Thursday morning :) I'm actually excited about not eating, the feeling of emptiness and turning a cold shoulder on hunger; It gets me on a high that is impossible to explain unless you are able to read my mind and feel what I feel.

Anyway, enough of that! Starting from now I am NOT eating. I shall drink plenty of water and take vitamin supplements as well as fibre tablets that have laxative effects (yay, finally found them in the medicine cupboard). I shall wake up at 8AM and go rolllerblading (rollerskating) in the morning for an hour (although it's gonna be FREEZING COLD) and again in the afternoon at 2 or 3PM depending on if it seems its gonna start getting dark outside soon. So yea that's my plan, and if I feel excrucitating hunger pangs I shall ONLY have 1 packet of Tomato and Basil soup in a cup which is only 55calories!!! I must remember, I must remember...... When I feel like going to the kitchen I must remind myself that it is not worth it and that it's best to just stay in my bedroom and do a mountain-high pile of homework, coursework and revision for my freaking exams in January.

Ok, so those who have read my previous posts probably know that I absolutely LOVE trampolining and I have owned and used Rollerblades since the age of 9. So yeah, I want to know two sports that you guys absolutely LOVE!

Some thinspo for you lovlies out there that actually read my blog :) 

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Have a lovely day and week guys :)

Stuck at 129 pounds...

Hey Guys, 

I'm sorry it's been a while. I had mock exams last week and just loads of things going on but I'm back now :)

Guess what? I got an A (again!!!) in my mock Psychology!!!!! Wooohooooo! I'm so over the moon especially when I thought I didn't revise enough for it. 

Anyway so I've started this exercise regime since Wednesday and I have noticed that I'm stuck at 129 pounds. Which is okay I guess because at least I'm not gaining, but I'm not happy about not losing weight either. Although I'm glad to notice my belly getting flatter and my arms more toned and I feel fit, but hopefully I'll see some results soon from all this hard work. I workout  times a day (compulsory) but if I got enough energy I can keep going all day during breaks when I'm at home revising. I'm actually quite happy I'm getting better at push ups too but I don't want to gain muscle, I'd rather loose the fat first :( 

So I'm gonna try a fluid only diet from tomorrow, I bought a packet of under 60calories tomato soup. Hopefully by the end of the week I would've have lost at least 2-3 real pounds that can be kept off.

Wish me luck lovelies...... Hoping to be 120 by New Years :)

My dream legs up there ^^^ 

:)