It was going soo good...

So as you can tell by the post title; I have failed. Again. But guess what guys I'm not beating myself up about it because it's the holidays now and I'm totally taking the opportunity over the next few days to fast and do some vigorous exercise as my parents are still working this week. So I should be able to fast until Thursday morning :) I'm actually excited about not eating, the feeling of emptiness and turning a cold shoulder on hunger; It gets me on a high that is impossible to explain unless you are able to read my mind and feel what I feel.

Anyway, enough of that! Starting from now I am NOT eating. I shall drink plenty of water and take vitamin supplements as well as fibre tablets that have laxative effects (yay, finally found them in the medicine cupboard). I shall wake up at 8AM and go rolllerblading (rollerskating) in the morning for an hour (although it's gonna be FREEZING COLD) and again in the afternoon at 2 or 3PM depending on if it seems its gonna start getting dark outside soon. So yea that's my plan, and if I feel excrucitating hunger pangs I shall ONLY have 1 packet of Tomato and Basil soup in a cup which is only 55calories!!! I must remember, I must remember...... When I feel like going to the kitchen I must remind myself that it is not worth it and that it's best to just stay in my bedroom and do a mountain-high pile of homework, coursework and revision for my freaking exams in January.

Ok, so those who have read my previous posts probably know that I absolutely LOVE trampolining and I have owned and used Rollerblades since the age of 9. So yeah, I want to know two sports that you guys absolutely LOVE!

Some thinspo for you lovlies out there that actually read my blog :) 

I love Taylor Momsen! :)

Guys, guys, guys!! I'm sooo glad to have found rollerbading thinspo :)

Have a lovely day and week guys :)

Another fail...

So I'm a bit annoyed/depressed because I just realised how nice I am. Like really, sometimes people just take advantage of me. I always pay attention to what people say and when I point out that like for my exam today they didn't ask me how it went and they're like 'Oh yeah'. And then I just feel like.. poo, basically. So I'm always welcomed to ask them about how things are going and listen to their stories (most of them which are crap) all day long but they can't ask me how an exam went??? Ok, that's cool. Keep calm I tell myself. It's not worth it to kick up a fuss and argue. I'm not good at fights, all I'm able to do is listen to the person bullshiting and ignoring them. That's just who I am.

Ok so today I had my Biology exam and it was alright and of course the things that I revised for the most didn't come up on the paper. That's cool, cos I mean I didn't waste my time or anything.... (Note the sarcasm as I write) 

Anyway, knowing that I have the exam today, yesterday I vowed to eat breakfast for today which by the way is not becoming such a hard thing to do anymore :( Yes people say skipping breakfast is bad but for me its a little different... 

If I don't eat breakfast I will not eat dinner because I eat lunch which means I only eat once a day. If I eat breakfast then somehow my messed up hunger signals drive me into eating dinner too, that means I eat TWICE a day. So yea, I ate breakfast and lunch today. and LOADS of snacks 

I didn't mean to, it's just that my friend (who if I may mention is SKINNY and I LOVE HER SHAPE its DEPRESSING) forced me and bought me chicken nuggets and fat chips to eat at the canteen when I told her I have an exam. Silly me, I shouldn't have. Now I know to avoid telling her I have exams or tests or whatever because she believes it magically makes your brain work better o.O So that sucked but I didn't give into eating dinner though (YAY), because my mum didn't really bother me too much since she was busy with her own thing.  

So my goals for tomorrow are to skip breakfast and simply just eat lunch and resist dinner which is about the easiest thing to do. Resisting dinner that is, I simply look at the amount of food my parents eat and that already puts me off and I'm on my way!

I weighed myself after breakfast today, fully dressed because I forgot to weigh myself after taking a shower. 

I don't want to weigh myself today because I know I gained about a pound or two. Gonna do some leg and abdominal exercises before bed to feel better.

Hopefully I will burn more calories through my 2 hour trampolining session tomorrow. I missed today's 1 hour session because it's during lunchtime and yea....

So some encouragement for you guys and myself also

So true...... :(

Ha ha! :D

AMEN!!

This is what I need to work on sooo badly

Ha ha ! :D

And on that marvellous note, bye and take care guys! xx