Another fail...

So I'm a bit annoyed/depressed because I just realised how nice I am. Like really, sometimes people just take advantage of me. I always pay attention to what people say and when I point out that like for my exam today they didn't ask me how it went and they're like 'Oh yeah'. And then I just feel like.. poo, basically. So I'm always welcomed to ask them about how things are going and listen to their stories (most of them which are crap) all day long but they can't ask me how an exam went??? Ok, that's cool. Keep calm I tell myself. It's not worth it to kick up a fuss and argue. I'm not good at fights, all I'm able to do is listen to the person bullshiting and ignoring them. That's just who I am.

Ok so today I had my Biology exam and it was alright and of course the things that I revised for the most didn't come up on the paper. That's cool, cos I mean I didn't waste my time or anything.... (Note the sarcasm as I write) 

Anyway, knowing that I have the exam today, yesterday I vowed to eat breakfast for today which by the way is not becoming such a hard thing to do anymore :( Yes people say skipping breakfast is bad but for me its a little different... 

If I don't eat breakfast I will not eat dinner because I eat lunch which means I only eat once a day. If I eat breakfast then somehow my messed up hunger signals drive me into eating dinner too, that means I eat TWICE a day. So yea, I ate breakfast and lunch today. and LOADS of snacks 

I didn't mean to, it's just that my friend (who if I may mention is SKINNY and I LOVE HER SHAPE its DEPRESSING) forced me and bought me chicken nuggets and fat chips to eat at the canteen when I told her I have an exam. Silly me, I shouldn't have. Now I know to avoid telling her I have exams or tests or whatever because she believes it magically makes your brain work better o.O So that sucked but I didn't give into eating dinner though (YAY), because my mum didn't really bother me too much since she was busy with her own thing.  

So my goals for tomorrow are to skip breakfast and simply just eat lunch and resist dinner which is about the easiest thing to do. Resisting dinner that is, I simply look at the amount of food my parents eat and that already puts me off and I'm on my way!

I weighed myself after breakfast today, fully dressed because I forgot to weigh myself after taking a shower. 

I don't want to weigh myself today because I know I gained about a pound or two. Gonna do some leg and abdominal exercises before bed to feel better.

Hopefully I will burn more calories through my 2 hour trampolining session tomorrow. I missed today's 1 hour session because it's during lunchtime and yea....

So some encouragement for you guys and myself also

So true...... :(

Ha ha! :D

AMEN!!

This is what I need to work on sooo badly

Ha ha ! :D

And on that marvellous note, bye and take care guys! xx

So it's been like.... forever

So I've only ever posted once on my blog (I know I'm soo bad -_-) So just to recap the past couple of months; I finished secondary school ( I live in London by the way), have started college (I'm doing A-level Biology, English literature and language, Psychology and German) and have put on a tremendous amount of weight *sigh* See what I struggle with is not the actual not eating (I can do that perfectly fine when my mum is not watching) but I struggle with saying no to food when I'm actually offered. It's not like I have a fear of actually being caught not eating or something, but it's just that... Well... I simply can't resist food

It's actually gotten to a point where I think might need help, like... spiritually. Yes I'm a Christian and probably not setting the best example writing this blog, but I'm simply trying to loose weight that's all. Anyway, so I went on like a 2 day fast which could've been 3 but yea my mum decided to interfere *sigh* Well the bottom line is, I don't eat a lot of times during the day, but when I do, I OVEREAT!! Like major binge and I just completely go off the rails! It's like, once I taste something good, I want more and more until I am waaaay too full. It's quite sad actually.... I'm being a total pig. A total greedy pig. A total greedy ballooning pig.

So there, I've spoken my mind. I wonder if anyone actually reads this.... o.O

Stats:
CW - No clue (I can't bear stepping on the scale when I know I've gained like a stone)

Food Diary:
Breakfast: Bran flakes with semi-skimmed milk, slice of wholemeal toast with jam and philidelphia
Lunch: Fried egg with tomato and red peppers, 2 slices wholemeal toast, jam, philidelphia (AGAIN, I know...) Oh and a big cup of black tea with milk
Dinner: Chicken soup and rice (I had 3 drumsticks -_- 3!!!!) and sparkling Lemonade
Snack: 6 chocolate covered brazil nuts (looooots of chocolate), 5 mints

Oooh guess what guys?!! I've been all over my house trying to find something to get me to.... wait for it..... POOP. Because, yea...... So I've finally found laxatives!!! Wooohoooooo. I hope it kicks in soon because I feel like I'm carrying extra loads -_-

So ANYWAY...... a little thinspo! I really want thin thighs!!!

Amazing! I love love LOVE her gap :)

I want to cry... her legs are beautiful!

I want to be able to wear shorts like that!!

Dreaming.....

One day!

I want to be able to wear long socks like that without any fat spilling!

One day my pictures will be used as thinspo! 

Be positive guys and stay strong!

             Sophie xx

A new Day, a new beginning

For Monday 25th July 2011

So first of all, I must say I'm very annoyed as I'm writing this, I already wrote a post for today and it didn't save and I navigated away from the page so the damn thing is lost. Now I have to write EVERYTHING again...... grrrrr

Anyway, enough of my little rant up there...

Hello Fellow Bloggers! This is actually my first time posting something on here, I joined this website just a couple of days ago, mainly to find people like me who are trying to downsize to be skinny/thin. So just to let you know, if you don't agree with this sort of thing, simply leave this blog, thanks :) I'm only out here for support.

Stats

So before anything, initially today I was 132 pounds (this has been my highest ever by the way. Some people think it's not that bad, but trust me, my sort of body shape doesn't flatter that figure at all. Everything seems to go to the thighs, bum and arms omg -_-)

Anyway, so I took a dump and then I was 131pounds.

After some (thank God!) running I was 129pounds. (This really made me realise that with exercise IT IS possible to loose weight)

CW: 129pounds (9st.3)

GW for end of august: 117pounds (8st.5)

UGW: 98pounds (7st)

Food Diary

Breakfast: Bran flakes, nut and clusters cereal with semi-skimmed milk

Lunch: 1 slice of wholemeal bread with butter (yes i know, tut tut), salami and cheese

Dinner: Jealouf Rice (I'm african by the way, so that's red fried rice basically, it's spicy too)

Snacks: 1 stick thingy of cookies and cream ice cream and 3 slices of almond cake... (I was really naughty today and just binged really)

So in my 1st ever thinspo I'm currently focusing on gaps between thighs/legs

The tights look great on her!!!

Imagine your thighs being this thin!!!

Remember this is achievable guys!! Just make that extra little sacrifice and put in a bit more work, you'll fit into anything you want with a body like this. Come on, you can do it!