Time for a change!

So it's been a while since I've posted anything.... Probably about a year and a half.

And although I have gained weight actually, I definitely am not going down the unhealthy route of weightloss again. This time, I'm determined to move my lazy ass! (which I have been doing regularly by the way which has helped maintain my current weight).

The thing is, now I need to change the way I eat. I admit, I still have a problem with food which is rather unhealthy. I still binge uncontrollably when I'm feeling emotionally low. But I will get there, I promise.

Firstly;

I need to cut down on Sugar.
Sugar is my biggest enemy yet.

I have no problem avoiding meat and salty things but I do have a really sweet tooth most of the time.
And let me tell you it has cost me.... I'm about 7-10pounds heavier than last time I posted something on my blog.

I take the blame.

Secondly;

I need to cut down my frickin' portions. I can truly testify to the myth that people who don't eat breakfast are heavier. I've seen it with my own eyes. I used to eat breakfast during secondary school but once I got to my final 2 years, since then I've been a pretty good breakfast-skipper.

This means that I don't eat for ages and most of the time (I'm in the final year of Sixth Form by the way), I'm so busy I forget to eat which means that I probably don't eat until 4 or 5pm depending on my schedule.

So when I do eventually get my hands on some food, I wolf tons and tons of it down as if I had been starving for the past week. Obviously, this means that I overeat A LOT.
So not eating breakfast and lunch would be absolutely worthless at the end of the day because I eat twice or sometimes thrice as much as I would normally eat throughout the day in a single sitting. *Sigh*

That is bad. That is very VERY BAD.

This, I realise, is another habit I need to kick to the curb.

Lastly;

I have to destroy the 'I'm not good/pretty/slim-enough' monster within me. Once I find out how, I promise to share with you how I managed to tear the monster into pieces.

I'll leave now and do some coursework as I planned for today. Half the day is already gone! Oh dear, I'm so idle.... X_X

Good day!

So today was a good day... obviously as you can tell. I worked out at the gym today on the leg exercise machine thing (I think it's called an elliptical?) after which I felt EPIC! I actually felt light and I was surprised I even lasted the full 30mins with no stopping. I'm proud of myself, it's quite an achievement for me :) The fact I was doing that murderous hill training aswell just puts the icing on the cake :)

Weigh-in is tomorrow... I wonder how I'll do. Even if I don't lose at the moment it's ok because at least I'm actually managing my binging habits really well these days. (I really want to lose though!!)

From tomorrow on I'm on a liquid diet- I'm not shoving anything solid down my throat -.-

Stats:
666 calories (Food)
315 calories burned (Exercise) over 30mins
Net: 351 calories

Today's thinspo is dedicated to shoulders, neck and back :) I find slender necks especially alluring and sexy

AWESOME!!! ^^

I haven't lost control by the way I just like the picture; her back is awesome

Actively making progress....

Hey guys! So, for the past few days I've been very good at controlling myself :) I've only eaten once yesterday and today and before that I've been very cautious and haven't binged. I think I'm starting to realise that change all happens once you start thinking differently. I mean, now I actually listen to my brain when it says that I'm nearly full. It's quite weird and you might not understand but bear with me. It's almost as if I mentally process everything on my plate and food in my surroundings before it even goes into my mouth. It's good in a sense that I know that I will only eat what's on my plate and I won't burden myself with more food from the surroundings. I sort of just think that I'm physically incapable of downing anymore food than what's on my plate. For example, like today at Breakfast with the family, after finishing my plate of food (2 baguette slices + toppings), I stared at the croissant for a bit. My mum looked at me and said "Eat it", and I just looked at it some more and concluded that "no" I couldn't physically put in my mouth. For the first time in ages, I've been almost full, realised it and actually stopped eating!!! That's quite an achievement for me because although I know I'm full, I carry on eating- It was baaaad. 

I've challenged myself to get to 125 by February 8th. Haven't weighed myself, only going to on Wednesday's because the 8th will be a Wednesday. Wish me luck guys :)
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Some Lookbook thinspo for you guys (fashion+thinspo all in one) :) Check it out >> http://lookbook.nu/

Exams are over!!

Wohooooooo! I'm  finished, finito, fin, fertig, färdiga... D-O-N-E!!!

So psychology went well, I ought to get an A but biology wasn't that great really. I don't think I failed (C) but I don't think I done so good that I got an A. I was pretty terrified throughout the exam. I hate biology exams. They are so unpredictable :/
Oh well, gives me more of a reason to fast AND pray. I need an A so badlyyyyy. I don't want to disappoint everyone, they've witnessed me working so hard and it would be total humiliation if I don't get an A or a B :(

Anyway, enough of that. So as usual, I haven't gained a pound but I feel fatter. Probably because I haven't been to the gym at college since I've been revising instead. Ah well, will start again on Tuesday. But it's sooo long away.... I've got an idea though; if I go to bed earlier, I can wake up earlier and therefore walk to college just as I walked home from college today- it felt good. It takes around 30mins to walk to college, which is alright I guess but I just have to be bothered to wake up early, that's all.

I got twitter guys! Follow me if you want :) https://twitter.com/#!/MindYourOwn_Biz

I got a new goal - 125pounds by February 8th (my bday- yay!) I'm currently 131pounds, if I push myself I can even make it to 122-4pounds :) I definitely need to be positive :)