Weight/Diet update

Ironically when I'm at college/uni I eat way healthier than I do at home (I live with my uncle, his wife and 4 kids). Maybe it's because I'm too frugal to spend my money on mindless snacking sprees at college. At home, snacks overflow the pantry and it's incredibly tempting when everything is just so damn delicious and I have nothing else to do.

So.... back to updating you guys on my weight. At college, during the last few weeks (about 4), I was able lose the pounds and drop from 140 to 133lb. This is without regular exercise (hardly any) and just by eating less and resisting the scrumptious ice cream and dessert area of the cafeteria.
Believe me when I say that it took an incredibly long time (almost a whole semester to be exact) for me not to feel obliged to eat everything in sight just because it's part of what I paid for.

Currently, I weigh 138 pounds..... I feel ashamed, in the space of one week and 4 days, I've put on 5 pounds and it sucks. I've really let myself down in terms of what I eat. I'm working on it. Thank God they actually buy fruit now so when I feel the urge to snack I'll reach for a bag of grapes rather than a pack of oreos.

Nevertheless, I'm proud to say that I've been working out every other day. I run for about 30/40mins, do squat and ab exercises and it feels great. I've really been pushing myself in that aspect, but I really need to pull up my socks with my diet if I want to see any major results.

My goal for this summer is to lose 15pounds. I don't think its too far fetched, I'll have until August to reach my target weight so I'll look like a brand new person when school starts again. I'd be really content to lose even just 10 pounds for the long term. I basically don't want to weigh more than 128pounds again.
My thighs seriously kill my self-esteem.

Time for a change!

So it's been a while since I've posted anything.... Probably about a year and a half.

And although I have gained weight actually, I definitely am not going down the unhealthy route of weightloss again. This time, I'm determined to move my lazy ass! (which I have been doing regularly by the way which has helped maintain my current weight).

The thing is, now I need to change the way I eat. I admit, I still have a problem with food which is rather unhealthy. I still binge uncontrollably when I'm feeling emotionally low. But I will get there, I promise.

Firstly;

I need to cut down on Sugar.
Sugar is my biggest enemy yet.

I have no problem avoiding meat and salty things but I do have a really sweet tooth most of the time.
And let me tell you it has cost me.... I'm about 7-10pounds heavier than last time I posted something on my blog.

I take the blame.

Secondly;

I need to cut down my frickin' portions. I can truly testify to the myth that people who don't eat breakfast are heavier. I've seen it with my own eyes. I used to eat breakfast during secondary school but once I got to my final 2 years, since then I've been a pretty good breakfast-skipper.

This means that I don't eat for ages and most of the time (I'm in the final year of Sixth Form by the way), I'm so busy I forget to eat which means that I probably don't eat until 4 or 5pm depending on my schedule.

So when I do eventually get my hands on some food, I wolf tons and tons of it down as if I had been starving for the past week. Obviously, this means that I overeat A LOT.
So not eating breakfast and lunch would be absolutely worthless at the end of the day because I eat twice or sometimes thrice as much as I would normally eat throughout the day in a single sitting. *Sigh*

That is bad. That is very VERY BAD.

This, I realise, is another habit I need to kick to the curb.

Lastly;

I have to destroy the 'I'm not good/pretty/slim-enough' monster within me. Once I find out how, I promise to share with you how I managed to tear the monster into pieces.

I'll leave now and do some coursework as I planned for today. Half the day is already gone! Oh dear, I'm so idle.... X_X

Actively making progress....

Hey guys! So, for the past few days I've been very good at controlling myself :) I've only eaten once yesterday and today and before that I've been very cautious and haven't binged. I think I'm starting to realise that change all happens once you start thinking differently. I mean, now I actually listen to my brain when it says that I'm nearly full. It's quite weird and you might not understand but bear with me. It's almost as if I mentally process everything on my plate and food in my surroundings before it even goes into my mouth. It's good in a sense that I know that I will only eat what's on my plate and I won't burden myself with more food from the surroundings. I sort of just think that I'm physically incapable of downing anymore food than what's on my plate. For example, like today at Breakfast with the family, after finishing my plate of food (2 baguette slices + toppings), I stared at the croissant for a bit. My mum looked at me and said "Eat it", and I just looked at it some more and concluded that "no" I couldn't physically put in my mouth. For the first time in ages, I've been almost full, realised it and actually stopped eating!!! That's quite an achievement for me because although I know I'm full, I carry on eating- It was baaaad. 

I've challenged myself to get to 125 by February 8th. Haven't weighed myself, only going to on Wednesday's because the 8th will be a Wednesday. Wish me luck guys :)
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So sorry! Oh and happy New Year :)

I haven't posted in weeks and I'm sorry guys. Been mega busy! Exams start next week Tuesday, hope everything goes well :) Got coursework due on Friday which I MUST start now.... after this post. Hope you guys had a good holiday and this year I didn't make any resolutions (surprisingly). I'm gonna stick with being realistic.

POSITIVES

Thank God I didn't gain 1 pound during the festive period!!! It's quite surprising because I ate a lot of CRAP including tons of sweets, crips, chocolate ect. Everything bad basically. And there are STILL some leftovers at home. Anyway, I started doing daily workouts again and hopefully I will last longer than 3 weeks this time. Maybe I should have breaks at times so I don't get bored? 

I'm regularly going to the gym, only once a week though but it's still something! I go on Tuesdays during lunchtime at my college (6th form) because it's a Girls-Only session., I could go to the Thursday one too but I already go for the Christian Union thing during lunchtimes so thats not possible.

NEGATIVES

Im stuffing my face like CRAZYYY!!!! Too many holiday leftovers at home :(

PLAN

stop eating after 6PM!!!

to stop craves I WILL drink a long cup of water, IMMEDIATELY, if I can't hold it, eat an apple and reward myself with a tiny snack like a chocolate covered rice cracker (only 40 calories!) if I still feel hungry. 

There's no point treating myself badly by trying to fast when there's so much CRAP around the house

Keep drinking herbal teas! It's really helping me poo (excuse my language) normally and not be bloated all the time :)

Time for thinspo!!!!

She's so beautiful :)

Dream legs up there ^^^ :O

Holy shizzle!!! I wanna be able to wear thights like that and  NOT have fat spilling over!! :D

Ok, that's it for now lovelies :)